Busy lives can quiet a loud mind!

I have somehow; quieted parts of my mind, by keeping myself busy! Life has made many turns; and I guess it seems from earlier posts, that I have always let them stir again at this time of year. I have been meaning to write, and write some more, but here we are with years that have passed!!! It's now 2022, wow...Can you imagine? I have not posted a thing since 2019, I don't know how I have let this go silent for so long!? How did I let so much time pass and not post a single thing?

Some funny thoughts about aging.

The older I get the more I realize it's easier to stink! HAHA Can you relate?

It doesn't take much to get tired anymore.

It's those moments when you bend down to tire your shoe, it can be a task! 

I never used to get headaches, but I get them more often now...That I am older.

If you don't use your joints and muscles, they seem to not take much time to ache and pain. 

Our minds are like wine, it gets better with age, HOWEVER and thought can escape you in an instant at time HAHA 

Also our bodies are like cars if you don't use them often enough they tend to not works as well, if you always use them! You know what I mean? Exercise gets more important as we age. 😉

I guess that is what I have for you for now! 

I hope all is well with you in your world, and I hope too, that you are alright! Bright thoughts and positive energies to you and everyone you care about in the world!  

-Unknown 

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An interesting video about Egypt and other historical Theories/Places in the world.

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Working it's working and so am I!

I have been away,
I have been working,
And so have other things,
Been working!

Keeping busy,
Working steadily,
And think big for my future,
And the future of others,
Among other things!

Tuesday's are my Monday's,
Saturday's are my Friday's,
Sunday and Monday's are my weekends...
It kind of a sweet deal,
To say the least!

I hope you are all doing well,
I am not sure about that beast,
Guess he's changed the world,
Feel like I should give my head a thump,
Why the hell did they, elect Trump?






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They are still contacting me!

They are still contacting me, but from where I do not know!
Words that always stand out,
Words that stand out as if I am only hearing or reading between the lines...
A long time ago, I learned..."Don't take it personally!"
Why do I say that?
It happened elsewhere and not to me!
A name was spoken, and then I saw it in the news, or someone said it to me!

Why do I confess this?
I am unknown, you don't know who I am, or know me personally, and those who do know me personally, do not know what I am confessing!

What have I heard lately?
Stuff about suicide, this one has been going on a very long time!
People have gone missing, the proof is on the news or on someone's new status on my facebook news feed.
People crying they are innocent , yet they are not believed and then thrown away! (I have posted that in a past post or posts)
I start to fall asleep and hear a girl screaming at a man! "You can't treat me this way" Yeah, that's what they say.
Even just last night as I drift off to sleep, and young mans voice says, "I am going to rape you" and then he snickers!
Last Night I heard a man threatening to rip a people apart...I "feel" like it was directed towards a female!
This morning as I awake I heard "it's just like you're commiting suicide", I have no idea of what this is referring to, so by now maybe you can understand my frustration at this point in time!
I was told once I had a black hole, what does that even mean? I always wondered this since that moment!
There have always been references to Time Travel, and that "going back is too dangerous" yes I heard or read that too, it has been so long from this phrase I can't remember if I "heard" it or if I "read" it!
Yes, I do know I sound crazy, and that I seem strange or odd or maybe even creepy! It would be insane to assume I didn't know that!

I plan to come back in a day or so to connect and speak of what comes to me, but I fear it won't make any sense(as it never seems to until later on), because I feel each statement doesn't connect to each other most times.

So until then, I will hope you will wait patiently for my next post!
Farewell readers!!!!!!!!!!


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Stay strong!

Into the void my mind seems scattered,
Hold myself when I feel emotionally battered,
Stronger then I ever thought I could be,
No matter where life's seems to land me,
I hold my own,
I stand firm,
Can't let them knock us down,
That's what I've learned,
About others, but mostly about myself,
Because a lot of us are very similar,
We all feel doubt,
We all get broken, and most of us climb back up,
Even at those vulnerable moments when someone screams to shut up,
This love I bury deep inside,
I'd love to let it fully flow,
Maybe to help someone learn to love themselves,
Or maybe to help me to wipe myself clean from all the untrust clouded with doubt.

I had been holding things back for so long, and I feel these words can describe such feelings trapped within. I hope it helps others in some way, as I know others too can probably relate!
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The World

The world needs peace!
Don't you hear their prayers?
I'm not got jesus nor a saint, But somehow I think I know what they are praying for!

They pray for peace, they pray in pleading voices...
"Please help us!"
They cry...
"Is all hope lost? Where are you when we need you?"
They are screaming, while other are crying that people are making so many mistakes.
Some are actually praying to god and asking for forgiveness because of their own mistakes! How's that sound? "I made a horrible mistake"
Does anyone else hear them? If I had the ability to answer those prayers to which whoever is not answering I would. But I am but just a tiny human with no such skills. It's not my job, but you know as well as I see if you're reading this, that you need to do your job! Because I know you hear them. I know it isn't an easy job, and I wouldn't want such a big responsibility, and I'd hold you while you feel overwhelmed with such a burden, and be there for you if you needed. I'd do my best to give console and advice, even though I am sure it wouldn't be good enough, or even a listening ear. It's painful to know how much suffering is happening right now.

Love always, and sending out blessings and healing thoughts and praying for peace for our little world(in a huge universe) fully of tiny humans suffering from so much right now!
I don't know what else to write.
I LOVE YOU!
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Find what you seek!

When darkness falls you'll open your eyes,
You'll see things you didn't before realize,
The sky will be a beautiful navy blue,
You are old enough to know better...they always told you,
The changes in your life that you seek,
It's just around the corner; just take a peek,

What is it you long for?
What is it you desire?
Is it just a lust?
Or is it true loves hearts fire?

Just open your eyes,
Just search your inner core way deep inside,
Give yourself time and silence alone,
And just when you're least expecting,
It shall be known!
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And it was...And it is...Are my eyes decieving me?

I'm not for sure of how I want to start this off.

Home schoolers I learnt that...a majority of them are Christians. Don't get me wrong here, in what I have to say, I'm not hating on God! Be that known right from the start!

Anyway now, the children folk I speak of now and am in favor to stand up for. Yes god is good and god is great! BUT why do that to the children? Why home school them and say it is gods way! Have you had a conversation and he had replied back? Did god tell you he said you must teach his children all those things that people(not god) write in books is to be truth? Put me down! I don't care, blasphemy-ze me! YOU ARE NOT GOD!

I'm heated, I am sorry!

But seeing people; home school children, and say "god says" "God demands" this, that, and everything god! "There isn't enough god, blah blah and more blah god!"

I am sorry, truthfully I am, but it sounds like these children are being force fed things of the lord that no one even knows about and that they start off so young, they don't know or choose anything, they are brain washed, so instead of being able to think for themselves; they are fed, and given and told everything.

It isn't unlearning anything, if you are teaching them all the stuff from the very beginning of their lives, where did they learn anything to even be unlearned in the first place? Understand my point here or have an argument?

Please Don't take advantage of their little trusting souls! You want them to be loyal Christians? Send them to church and Sunday school! That is what that is for! That is where they can learn of proper Christian things. I worry about how they will feel in the real world after parents only teach of such things. Do they want God fearing hermits/Hermtes's(whatever the female term is)?

Think, before thy speak. Learn, before thy act. How will they learn of other people's reaction? Does all these things that keep them naive to the world, teach them anything of the people's of the world? Tragic! I hope I explain my thoughts well enough!

May peace, love, blessings and GODS LOVE...OPEN YOUR EYES!!

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I love you all and thank you for reading
Phoebe

About my symbols

After all these years, I finally get a symbol I recognize. It was a REIKI Symbol, it is the Cho Ku Rei.

To learn more click link or image below!

http://uncaststones.blogspot.ca/2013/09/the-first-reiki-symbol-cho-ku-rei.html

Though I did not remember what it was called nor it's symbolism or meaning when drawn or spoken. So I did a google search and search "healing symbols".....

Low and behold most of the symbols or even parts of them, only some upside down, reversed as well as backwards. So I guess all this time, I have finally opened up a piece of my confusion. A clue and or puzzle has been revealed. I'm confused as to why I'd get them. I'm confused why it took me so long to figure what they actually were for/from. Can you imagine my confusion? I not saying all of my symbols, but ...at least half or even maybe most of them.

At least now, I have something to work with for my own personal development with these symbols, but I feel maybe I'm just back to square one now and have to start over, and learn these symbols. I've never been attuned by any physical REIKI Master(that I am aware of at least)! So now maybe that alone, could show more of why I am having some confusion?

I guess now I could ask if their are any out there reading this, that might be attuned and knows more on the symbols, could you check my "symbols" blog pages, and maybe point out some? You can only do so much with google and what I know already, probably isn't enough; though, I'll try my best. I know one of the biggest so far over the years, which stands out most is FOCUS! So for now I'll do my research some more, and focus.

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He's still trying to crack the code...

My eyes are open, and I'm feeling wide awake,
I can see now more, and please make no mistakes,
I know you still can't crack the code,
That is what I saw you say,
I know you have the file,
But I don't have it, so I just wont break,

Do you still think that you know me?
Do you think I'm still not that smart?
I may not hold much book knowledge,
But I do have other means,
Maybe a mental condition, that makes me see unseen,
Maybe just a fluke I hear from other people's dreams,

I'm not a witch I tell you,
It's so much more than that,
I hear many things,
But I wont elaborate to much on that,
I give messages to others,
I share my words,
But don't accuse me of scamming any,
As I ask nothing in return...

I don't use any candles,
My rocks just help me sleep,
They keep my dreams clearer,
They help keep them from dreaming things, that no one wants to hear...
My rocks are not drugs,
They are rather trinkets of sorts,
They can't be burned nor smoked, you can't put them in your nose to snort,
They are just pretty stones, of many colors you see,
They are only simple gems,
What kind of rocks are yours?

I have some happy moments, they come and they go,
I cherish those times, I carry them deep within my heart,
I write this live, I'm typing it right now.
My words wont always work for you,
Because you, like myself, have too much doubt.
My doubt though it can be heavy,
It's not so much as it was,
Because I see more happening,
It starting to clear some of that doubt.

You think I'll tell you the code?
Sorry I am not that naive,
I don't have the file,
You do, so why even bother trying to deceive?
Treat me like a joke,
I prove you to be a fool.
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Farewell Loves
Unknown Sender

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Thoughts and things that flow in and out of my mind.

I'm just throwing some words together, they might not make sense, and maybe they will.

If you don't love me, you don't love music,
If you hate me, you hate a lot of things,
Sometimes I look at you and wonder who I'm seeing,
Sometimes you don't look like you,
But sometimes I don't look like me,
Sometimes I wonder if your eyes are open,
Do you see me? The real me, I foolishly show...
Am I blind, as they say love can be?,
Who am I? Who are you? Who is anyone for that matter?,

I've heard many times, that everyone is as one, a part of themselves..
Do I believe this? I doubt. But I also believe, if that is comprehensible,
I'm only human, but I'm not normal,
I'm odd, strange, weird, random and unexplainable at times too.

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A busy mind, can be a busy person.

Have you noticed, that when we're busy mentally,and or emotionally, we feel exhausted physically?
Yeah! You know what I'm saying.

Meh, sometimes you have to say good bye to people you love, because deep inside it feels all they want to do is hurt you, and make you unhappy, so to try and give happiness to themselves. And sometimes you leave other people you love, because they threaten your very existence, by secretly trying to kill you and you are so angry and saddened by it, you never want to ever go back to them.

Oh well.

Here's just a few words of the mind breaking wind...

In the woods lurks a stranger,
He laughs, because he causes danger,
He snickers, he grins, and than his maddening laughter begins,
Yet he thinks I can not hear him, he thinks I do not know,
Because I'm a little sneaky too,
My past taught me so,

I hope he reads this and gets scared, cause than I'll have some surge of power and I might actually win,
Maybe I'll ask for rain to dampen his socks,
But since I don't want bad karma, I'll just stare at this clock,
It's the loudest thing when you turn everything off,
Sometimes if you demand silence it'll surely pi$$ you off,
It can seem to beat in your head like a drum,
Tick tick ticking, until you start to feel numb,

But back to the stranger who lurks just beyond the tree line,
He waits for his victims, because that seems to be his pass-time,
I can't tell you what he looks like,
I can't see him at all,
I'm just told he dangerous, and where he hides...that's all,
He hates young women, but I don't know why,
Maybe something happened to him when he was young and it made him cry,
Crying can be dangerous and threatening to a man,
But I'm a woman(yes I am, you have a problem with it, than deal with it) who hates crying too, So that little bit I can understand,
I wouldn't revert to violence though, that's just not my MO,

I try my best to just understand people, and try to step mentally in their shoes,
I don't like contradictions though, and I do not like being used,
Don't take me for granted, Or I'll have to change the locks.

Please be careful of the stranger though,
And I do hope you understand,
He worse than you can imagine,
He does nothing but always stand.


Hey, but what do I know? I'll keep an eye on the news, but I wont say nothing about it(That's not my job), lets hope I'm wrong, and we all don't have to read about it..elsewhere....

I think this is the only info I can spare as of right now,
Perhaps another day I'll come back, and tell some more stories some how.





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Always.....Silence. Speaks in volumes!

I don't want to cry, and you can't make me.
Your silent actions, use my words and thrown them at me.
Hurt me with so many things, and ways, and not a word needed be spoken.
You can't keep blaming an adult for what they did as a child. Can't you see they aren't the same?
I've been hurt by many, suffered enough karma to teach me many lessons.
And still, I put no blame on anyone, only on circumstance.
The part of me that believes you still care, I don't trust it anymore, because of your "WORDS".
My heart, soul, mind and body, need peace, needs for others to hear them crying for mercy.
Situations arise for some, when just children, and those are the times in life, one does not have a choice.
Rape, sexual abuse, psychical abuse, mental abuse... emotional abuse, verbal abuse, abuse caused by rumors.
Do you know what it's like to be called ugly as a small child?
Do you know what it feels like to be bullied in any way?
Do you know what it feels like to be called a joke by your partner?
Do you?

Do you know what it's like to be called so ugly that you're told that you should wear a bag on your head?
Do you know what it's like when those bullies get all their friends to gang up on you all at once and you're standing all alone and no one speaks up?

I've let these things go, they don't bother me anymore, but when someone says I don't know suffering, nor pain, nor love. What do you think runs through my head? I stay silent in those moments, because they don't know me at all!
There are people I wish I could forget, but I'd want them to forget me to, so that they couldn't bother me, as a person who doesn't remember or know them because the memory isn't there...so as if strangers. Just not to hurt nor bothered.

I've helped many people in this life time, without them ever knowing me personally, without them ever seeing me. Strangers. And maybe I saved some lives along the way, but I don't tell anyone, because I did it for them, and the part of me that knows I've helped in someway, is good enough. I don't brag about my good deeds, because I didn't do it to be noticed, I'd like not to be noticed.

Do you know what it's like to suffer after praying for others? Do you know such a pain? A misery that appears after I pray, pray good for others. I wonder if any have prayed for me? I don't care if they did. I'd never ask.

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Sounds and things

Blizzards are loud,
Once the winds pick up,
Rains can drowned,
When it doesn't let up,
Loud are the crowds,
When they don't get what they want,
At peace is a human,
When they are where most happy,
Why judge their fate,
Just because you think they're too late,
You can be silent with the eyes,
But you scream very loud from inside,
Steady is a motion,
Of a soul-mate's lustful desire for the other,
If you fall behind,
Open your eyes and pay mind,
For if you're not paying attention,
The mind might end up quiet and blind,
See things for what they are,
You're not the only one with scars,
You're not the only one who's lost,
Broken hearts are created out of loss,
My mind as well as my heart is screaming Mercy,
For You forget the times we've spent in private,
The words you spoke,
I no longer rely on simple texts,
No simple texts with words,
No they don't do anything but hurt,
I'd rather a call,
A meeting elsewhere,
Because trust has been broken,
And I don't want a single touch,
Not a single embrace to ruin,
A true verbal connection,
THE TRUTH is what I want,
Texts are just words on screen,
And I want that no more.
These are the sounds and things that keep me from fully feeling at peace.

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Something to keep you busy...

Mystery of the Sphinx - FREE Movie
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What I've decided concerning my blog

I have decided I don't want to discuss my past relationships, love life, or personal life, in general.
I shall be back during the weekend perhaps for a poem or short opinionated rambling.

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Coming back

So I am deciding to come back, I wont be posting images or symbol information for a while as I have been moving around and literally been everywhere lately.
I know it has been quite some time since my last blog posting, but I do have good reasons why!
For a while, I may just post something completely random, about my day, or about some story of what has happened thus far! But mainly my focus here will be short stories or a few poems scattered here now and again.
I'm sorry for my absence, and hope everyone has been enjoying life until this point.
I will be back in the near future, as to my new posts that will be added.
Be well
Unknown
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Without using a computer for quite some time...

So here I am.
You're all probably wondering where I have been.

The thing is time passes in life and life does often get busy. And passes it does, as time...It waits for no one!
My time frame is off, by quite a bit if you might notice from past postings of blogs and such...as it is.
Issues arise, conflicts arrive as well. And I just haven't found too much time to get on a computer to post. I have also been contemplating getting back to my symbols studies (no not posting them, actually studying them) I feel that calling again, in a most urgency of ways as of late.
I am not sure if I shared the fact that I am a published author(besides blogging I might add), and I have had some crop ups of messages that people don't know this of myself and felt I may as well state so. For the record, and so people can get that out of their heads that I haven't. Not that, that is very important to me! Not greatly so anyway.
So on to my calling of studies that I myself and probably others reading this, know why it's even needed. Perhaps my symbols on paper (which I have not shared!) would maybe shed some light on the why's.
I needed to stop in and post something as I have noticed, January was my last post and it is now the month of April.
I hope you are all well and that maybe Parts of the world would stop getting so mad(I wish) and arguing about who has the biggest bombs!
Why can't things just be civil? Why can't things be resolved? Why are things always getting out of hand and leading out of context?
Why do things that can be settled so easily with communication end up leading to such distraction? I'm saddened by it all!!!
Wishing everyone happiness and peace, Blessings to all and I hope things get cleared up (though I have a bad feeling they wont before it's too late), so that people can see things for what they are and be clear headed for a change.
The mind is a noisy place as it is.



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I say you

And I'll tell you this ONE LAST TIME!
"Many will use You, in order to get to Me!"
They will mock love, they will also hide truths within, that you cannot find.
They will act hurt when you choose to leave, when they just fear you will come to me.
Those who do not know of such feelings, do not fully show it, but yet pretend if necessary what they "believe" it should look like, OR do as they have seen "true feelings" shown to them from others. Easy masks they wear, when they observe others who are real. Learn this by watching their over all reactions, rather then just listening, one can listen and believe ones words, but if you do not observe their over all persona, you will not see what is truly there!

OBSERVE, but don't get caught. Because remember, a con observes everything, but so does a long time abused heart broken soul...For they have been fooled by cons most of their life, so they can now read them well. (Makes sense now, more? Hope so, because learning the hard way hurts immensely)


"Many will use You(play on your emotions and fears), to get to me(to hurt me in anyway)!
You don't believe me now, but in time, you shall see! Only in time that gets wasted with regrets, shall others see the truth within the lies!

"KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN!" - Unknown

Whether the loving messages are directed at me or not, I'll still send my love out.

"Get off your knees"

One last message, which I know is not to me...But from me.
"They think we are the same person, WE ARE NOT!"



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Messages

Sorry for my absence, for I took some time to myself, or I must say, somewhat to myself.

I was getting messages, lots of messages, but before my absence, I thought it was lovingly sent towards myself. I found out the hard way I have been wrong on that.

I'm recieving loving messages always, but none are for me...Somehow I am having them directed my way, but sadly, those lovely and wonderful messages, are not for me.

This realization has left me sad, and very hurt inside. So instead of posting blogs I wanted to stay away, just the thought, that they are not for me has me built up inside with tears. life has had me in so many moments happy, sad, worried, and wishing that they had of been for me. I had myself foolishly believing I was loved.

I end this note saying, I'm grateful for each day I am surviving. Even though I hide this dreadful pain inside. Knowing that I am anonymous here, makes it a bit easier to express. But still all feelings are still harder to express these days, when I always have felt alone in this world, even when tons of people are around. There is a sadness, that I couldn't ever explain, even if I so chose to, express.

I am wishing, praying and hoping that no one ever has to feel this way, as I always have, and it's more-so-worse, now that I have this knowledge that the messages, might be coming to me, they are not...not for me.

Happiness and blessings go out to you all who shall find yourselves reading this for the holiday seasons.

And for my own emotional health, I am wanting to cry, because the huge lump in my throat from not doing so, is becoming hurtful and bothersome.

Farewell until another post.


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