A short story about self isolation and how a simple act can make someone feel better!

"Skipping isolation for a day!" Written by Unknown Sender Dec/5/2014

I stood at the waters edge, just gazing at all the nature around me. When I left my home I didn't know where I was going, I only know I had to get outside for some fresh air. I had been stuck inside all week long and I was feeling a little perplexed and starting to go stir crazed.

So I left, because I felt had had to, because something inside me was starting to scream. I wanted out, I wanted out and felt it coming from my core, my soul. I just needed out! So I walked, not knowing where my feet were going to bring me. I just walked non-stop until I reach a wooded path.

It led me to a creek, and then to an opening exiting the woods. I followed the path until I reached a entrance to this beautiful lake. I had a funny feeling I had been there before, but couldn't recall when! Familiarity! But where was I? So I stood there looking out at the water, as calm as a glass lain field.

Suddenly I bent down and looked at all the stones, big boulders and medium sized rocks built a wall on either side of me. It was kind of like natures barriers; blocking the view of my being there, from others.

I picked up a good slim rock and stood erect again, squinted my eyes at the waters still surface and tossed with all my might on a side angle and let go. It skipped probably 10 times! Excitement filled me! Funny how something so simple can bring butterflies and happiness within one's being!

I stayed there and skipped rocks, for what seemed like all day. It was a refreshing feeling and brought back life to me, a feeling I had slowly forgotten over the years. When it started to get dark I decided to walk back home; grateful, with a better sense of well being!

When I got back home, I had remembered what was so familiar about that place! It was a place I had gone to as a child, with my parents. We use to go there for picnics and also where I had loved to skip rocks. Still to this day, I don't know why or how I could have forgotten such a wonderful place.

A Sheltering Place : Creating a Sanctuary for Healing



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forgetfulness

Sometimes I get so busy I forget things at home,
Like my watch, my cell and sometimes even to brush my teeth,

Sometimes if I don't get enough sleep I forget what happened just days before,
Like what did I eat? Or if I had anything but coffee

Sometimes I forget to say thank you,
After someone has let me cut in front of them in line,

"Sometimes I forget about my blog,
And so I rush online," ;-)

Sometimes I forget my emails,
And log on only to find, over 100, that happens all the time!,

I used to forget appointments, But I started marking them all in my calender while still on the phone, or if it's on a paper from the mail,

Sometimes I forget to wash my feet,
Because I am in a hurry in the shower,

I wonder if anyone else has all these problems with forgetting, because I am tired often, of my forgetfulness!!!

Actions Against Distractions: Managing Your Scattered, Disorganized, and Forgetful Mind


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What I've decided concerning my blog

I have decided I don't want to discuss my past relationships, love life, or personal life, in general.
I shall be back during the weekend perhaps for a poem or short opinionated rambling.

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Coming back

So I am deciding to come back, I wont be posting images or symbol information for a while as I have been moving around and literally been everywhere lately.
I know it has been quite some time since my last blog posting, but I do have good reasons why!
For a while, I may just post something completely random, about my day, or about some story of what has happened thus far! But mainly my focus here will be short stories or a few poems scattered here now and again.
I'm sorry for my absence, and hope everyone has been enjoying life until this point.
I will be back in the near future, as to my new posts that will be added.
Be well
Unknown
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I say you

And I'll tell you this ONE LAST TIME!
"Many will use You, in order to get to Me!"
They will mock love, they will also hide truths within, that you cannot find.
They will act hurt when you choose to leave, when they just fear you will come to me.
Those who do not know of such feelings, do not fully show it, but yet pretend if necessary what they "believe" it should look like, OR do as they have seen "true feelings" shown to them from others. Easy masks they wear, when they observe others who are real. Learn this by watching their over all reactions, rather then just listening, one can listen and believe ones words, but if you do not observe their over all persona, you will not see what is truly there!

OBSERVE, but don't get caught. Because remember, a con observes everything, but so does a long time abused heart broken soul...For they have been fooled by cons most of their life, so they can now read them well. (Makes sense now, more? Hope so, because learning the hard way hurts immensely)


"Many will use You(play on your emotions and fears), to get to me(to hurt me in anyway)!
You don't believe me now, but in time, you shall see! Only in time that gets wasted with regrets, shall others see the truth within the lies!

"KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN!" - Unknown

Whether the loving messages are directed at me or not, I'll still send my love out.

"Get off your knees"

One last message, which I know is not to me...But from me.
"They think we are the same person, WE ARE NOT!"



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Messages

Sorry for my absence, for I took some time to myself, or I must say, somewhat to myself.

I was getting messages, lots of messages, but before my absence, I thought it was lovingly sent towards myself. I found out the hard way I have been wrong on that.

I'm recieving loving messages always, but none are for me...Somehow I am having them directed my way, but sadly, those lovely and wonderful messages, are not for me.

This realization has left me sad, and very hurt inside. So instead of posting blogs I wanted to stay away, just the thought, that they are not for me has me built up inside with tears. life has had me in so many moments happy, sad, worried, and wishing that they had of been for me. I had myself foolishly believing I was loved.

I end this note saying, I'm grateful for each day I am surviving. Even though I hide this dreadful pain inside. Knowing that I am anonymous here, makes it a bit easier to express. But still all feelings are still harder to express these days, when I always have felt alone in this world, even when tons of people are around. There is a sadness, that I couldn't ever explain, even if I so chose to, express.

I am wishing, praying and hoping that no one ever has to feel this way, as I always have, and it's more-so-worse, now that I have this knowledge that the messages, might be coming to me, they are not...not for me.

Happiness and blessings go out to you all who shall find yourselves reading this for the holiday seasons.

And for my own emotional health, I am wanting to cry, because the huge lump in my throat from not doing so, is becoming hurtful and bothersome.

Farewell until another post.


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A great find, not so new, but newly found for me.

I just found this video and I'd like to share such an interesting find! I hope you all find it as interesting as myself.

No updates right now, but I dislike leaving my blog idling and being stagnant. I'm still not feeling well at all. But the summer is making me feel a weee bit more content, and content as well as grateful to still be alive at this time.
Brightest of blessings to you all.

Just some random words I wrote on paper almost a year ago ago!

August/30/2011

"Your silence, speaks louder than you think,
I see each thought you keep in everything I see, and all that I read,
Sometimes it's overwhelming,
It's so amazing...mm..mm,
How you open my eyes,
And never forgotten,
You're never forgotten..."


 "I swallowed all of my pride,
And I stepped out of the lines,
And found me!,
I like all that I see,
Even everything...all around me."


"You don't have far to go...from here,
You don't have to keep making yourself clear,
You're already there...for me,
You're already there....can't you see?"

A new poem for today...Let's call it strange and maybe enlightening!

"Defeated fears and questions of love" By Unknown Sender

Swirling vortex of thee obis,
Trying to make up for time I've missed,
Nothing beats a wonderful first kiss,
Only a few years ago...Yes it only what I miss,

My heart compelled to linger on,
Oh how it use to swell knowing when people were gone,

My senses heightened to ever lengths,
Across court yards the smell of  dirt and flowers with such strength,

Wandering down each path alone,
Learning with each season as each plant has grown,
I smell everything now,
Even the smell of the sea,
Waves crashing against the shore, I smell it from miles away...can't you see?

The swirls are so strong right below,
I have to look away,
For they make me sway,
So high up I feel just now,
With all those whirling pools,

I smell their swells,
I feel the rush of their strength,
Even though I am so high above,
It's sounds deafening,
So deafening, even the traffic can't drowned it out!

I suddenly realize I'm walking too fast,
This was the first time I walked the bridge "I just passed"...
Yet on my way back, I still walked it to fast!
But the second time, my mind wandered...
I wasted much time, just in the ponder..pondering what? Too many things

But I defeated a fear...Of height and of bridges over troubled waters!
Their swirls and whirls use to scare me so...
But now that I am older,
Those fears are so easily let go!

I still dream and remember each of those kisses,
I keep lots to myself..Even thoughts of my wishes,
But you know what?
I still miss those kisses,
Because each one was like the first...
Now that is a first!

A first for REAL love,
But now it lingered on it's way,
I never feel important enough to them,
I must say,

At first it was wonderful,
At first it was unlike anything in this world,
Thought it was my soul-mate,
But I guess I must be wrong,
Because they are never with me,
Even though these feelings and beliefs still beat strong.

So what is a soul-mate you ask?
Someone you're so connected to...
Never mind. That's to painful and too much to ask!

Just enjoy the natural things that are in this world,
The perfectly UN-perfect world, that we all sit upon.

Just an update! I just wanted to say where I have been!

Life has been throwing through many loops and hoops, and I have been trying to grab that safety handle in order to stop myself from being thrown far out into the universe! So please if you have been here looking for any updates to my odd blog, I do apologize for my absence. I wish for everyone to be well, and also hope you are not having to go through such trials in life as I have been as of late!

In perhaps chance a few days things are looking better and not so out of sorts, I hope to be posting some new and excitingly odd blogs again! If not I will post another update on my absence!

Sincerely
Unknown

Some old writings...Two poems from 2009

Here is something I wrote a long time ago...

The best gift... March 12 2009

The best gift you ever gave me...

"You couldn't have came at the better time,
I thought my life was over and felt very bad,
At first I was confused and unfocused,
Had been crying so long,
I thought I'd never see you again,
But I opened my door,
And you showed love once more...

I wanted to love you so much more,
I wanted to dance in the moonlight,
Scream out your name,
Hope you felt the same,
When silence was broken,
And so many words unspoken ...outloud,
You'll always have me,
I'm only yours and I'll always have these....
Times are precious with you,
I know my love is true,
But only for you!

I hope you'll have me again,
I hope you'll stay mine til the end,
My love is so strong this very moment,
I hope our love will move on, so strong
Until I die!

To my love

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Another written right afterwards

"More little things"  March 12 2009

Just something in my head!

It's the little things you do,
That keeps me moving on,
The little things to you,  are big things to me,
You show me many things,
That I can't ignore,
You show me everything,
Even if it hurts me more,
But I can see the truth,
Yes I can see through you,
All I see is you,
In everything and everyone,
Yes everything reminds me of you!

Just when I think it's done,
You show me love in small things one by one,
You opened my eyes to the world,
I do things I never thought I could,
I showed you I am good!

I see myself everyday,
Even if I am afraid,
Sleep deprived by myself,
I did create!

But here I am waiting still,
Patiently ....

More about SYMBOLS!! A small look into the Unknown!

First off...Sorry if my profile picture seems offensive to some, I know it has some meaning for others, but it has a different meaning altogether for me! I do know what it means! As I told you all before, I have been studying symbols for a few years now!

This is a long read so if you get tired of reading easily, you may as well go somewhere else on the WWW! ;-) lol

Now on to MY TOPIC!

Sometimes I get these impressions within my minds eye. It's kind of hard to explain, but I will do my best to. They aren't really like pictures, as they seem more like outlines, like a stamp. So when I noticed this, I started my research on symbols just for the heck of it to see where it got me. Well after that it became an obsession, because TRUTHFULLY...They turned out to be more than just a silly check just for the heck of it!

These symbols I started researching, became a reality, it wasn't something I had created on my own. I started seeing them more and more, the more I learned..The more I seen and found. It's hard sharing this with others because I know what they must be thinking...Seriously though..I would have thought the same things, if I had not been the one it was happening to!

I have learned a lot about myself, religions of the world, symbols of the world, the word Iconography (lol), and so much more! I learned that there are SO MANY RELIGIONS out there, that you can't even count them, unless you're a computer! I'm not religious, I don't follow any of religions...But I do believe in God..You have to name God something right? Well, I believe! If not from all my different and strange/odd experiences in life, I probably wouldn't!

That's how I got started on my searches and obsessions and I am going through my pages, in order to gather them all together, I am looking for all my notes so I can share some of them here with you all!

I hope you all have a great night and here are a few things for you!

I'd like to share a few links, for your brains to learn more on your own. If you have any questions at all ASK ME ANYTHING! I am not afraid to give my honest advice, opinions or help in general! Please if you have personal questions, I ask that you try to keep them specific and to a minimum!

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Symbols!

All I want to say is, search engines and books, are the best way to start a search to learn more about symbols/Iconography/pictographs, etc. Also..You can learn some great stuff from ebooks as well!

HERE: A great place to find ebooks for free and at a cost! *I also placed a button on the right sidebar, if you should come back and this post is buried!*


Here are a few links as well!
http://www.symbols.com/  - is okay, but it can be a bit aggravating to wrap your head around so much, and some of the symbols are all mixed up into different categories...which doesn't help the aggravation. But you should check every means, if you are serious about learning more about symbols, symbolism and the like. I think I was more aggravated because I was looking for specifics on my mind impressions!

Google search - Great place to go if you are looking for certain symbols to help narrow it down.

http://worldsymbols.blogspot.ca/ - to find all the symbols here just look through the blog archives! I looked through these and I believe it is mainly religious and cultural symbolism. (BTW I put mine at the top right side bar if anyone is interested in my other blog posts!)

Iconography search on google images!

Two links at about.com
There was a better one I had found about a year ago, but I can't find it anymore, but these two are okay! Plus you can learn a lot at this site as well!
1- Symbolism
2- Symbolism

facebook symbol

Here is a fun one for you face book lovers!

And here are some great books I found enlightening and full of great information!

Is Past reflection healthy or unhealthy?

Well it has been a bit hectic within my brain lately, I have moments of wondering, Or maybe you could call it wandering.
I am going to try my best to explain this, I have been going to things from my past, for simple self reflection purposes...BUT I get this voice within telling me not to and that it is very dangerous!

The thing is, if we are to learn at all.. do we not have to reflect back in order to see where we have come and how far we have gotten and how much we have grown? That's a long sentence I know...

Anyways I have been going through my past internet foot steps along the way, to try and figure out what all happened and when and possibly learn from that, in order burying it in my own way...so to speak.

Everyone reflects, or at least most people do, in order to be proud of what they have become or to better what they have become by remembering who they were...either reflection process can have an upside!

I have some life thing to straiten out tonight, I just wanted to put a few words of encouragement for those who wish to, or have been thinking of life reflections and stuff.
Have a great Night I am planning to post tomorrow, we shall see how things come about tonight.