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Sunday, June 3, 2018
What do you think about A.I.?
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Thursday, May 24, 2018
Think about it! "The Anunnaki Creation Story: The Biggest Secret"
This story really makes you think!
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Monday, May 21, 2018
Found this on Youtube
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Friday, February 24, 2017
Working it's working and so am I!
I have been away,
I have been working,
And so have other things,
Been working!
Keeping busy,
Working steadily,
And think big for my future,
And the future of others,
Among other things!
Tuesday's are my Monday's,
Saturday's are my Friday's,
Sunday and Monday's are my weekends...
It kind of a sweet deal,
To say the least!
I hope you are all doing well,
I am not sure about that beast,
Guess he's changed the world,
Feel like I should give my head a thump,
Why the hell did they, elect Trump?
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I have been working,
And so have other things,
Been working!
Keeping busy,
Working steadily,
And think big for my future,
And the future of others,
Among other things!
Tuesday's are my Monday's,
Saturday's are my Friday's,
Sunday and Monday's are my weekends...
It kind of a sweet deal,
To say the least!
I hope you are all doing well,
I am not sure about that beast,
Guess he's changed the world,
Feel like I should give my head a thump,
Why the hell did they, elect Trump?
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Tuesday, November 8, 2016
They are still contacting me!
They are still contacting me, but from where I do not know!
Words that always stand out,
Words that stand out as if I am only hearing or reading between the lines...
A long time ago, I learned..."Don't take it personally!"
Why do I say that?
It happened elsewhere and not to me!
A name was spoken, and then I saw it in the news, or someone said it to me!
Why do I confess this?
I am unknown, you don't know who I am, or know me personally, and those who do know me personally, do not know what I am confessing!
What have I heard lately?
Stuff about suicide, this one has been going on a very long time!
People have gone missing, the proof is on the news or on someone's new status on my facebook news feed.
People crying they are innocent , yet they are not believed and then thrown away! (I have posted that in a past post or posts)
I start to fall asleep and hear a girl screaming at a man! "You can't treat me this way" Yeah, that's what they say.
Even just last night as I drift off to sleep, and young mans voice says, "I am going to rape you" and then he snickers!
Last Night I heard a man threatening to rip a people apart...I "feel" like it was directed towards a female!
This morning as I awake I heard "it's just like you're commiting suicide", I have no idea of what this is referring to, so by now maybe you can understand my frustration at this point in time!
I was told once I had a black hole, what does that even mean? I always wondered this since that moment!
There have always been references to Time Travel, and that "going back is too dangerous" yes I heard or read that too, it has been so long from this phrase I can't remember if I "heard" it or if I "read" it!
Yes, I do know I sound crazy, and that I seem strange or odd or maybe even creepy! It would be insane to assume I didn't know that!
I plan to come back in a day or so to connect and speak of what comes to me, but I fear it won't make any sense(as it never seems to until later on), because I feel each statement doesn't connect to each other most times.
So until then, I will hope you will wait patiently for my next post!
Farewell readers!!!!!!!!!!
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Words that always stand out,
Words that stand out as if I am only hearing or reading between the lines...
A long time ago, I learned..."Don't take it personally!"
Why do I say that?
It happened elsewhere and not to me!
A name was spoken, and then I saw it in the news, or someone said it to me!
Why do I confess this?
I am unknown, you don't know who I am, or know me personally, and those who do know me personally, do not know what I am confessing!
What have I heard lately?
Stuff about suicide, this one has been going on a very long time!
People have gone missing, the proof is on the news or on someone's new status on my facebook news feed.
People crying they are innocent , yet they are not believed and then thrown away! (I have posted that in a past post or posts)
I start to fall asleep and hear a girl screaming at a man! "You can't treat me this way" Yeah, that's what they say.
Even just last night as I drift off to sleep, and young mans voice says, "I am going to rape you" and then he snickers!
Last Night I heard a man threatening to rip a people apart...I "feel" like it was directed towards a female!
This morning as I awake I heard "it's just like you're commiting suicide", I have no idea of what this is referring to, so by now maybe you can understand my frustration at this point in time!
I was told once I had a black hole, what does that even mean? I always wondered this since that moment!
There have always been references to Time Travel, and that "going back is too dangerous" yes I heard or read that too, it has been so long from this phrase I can't remember if I "heard" it or if I "read" it!
Yes, I do know I sound crazy, and that I seem strange or odd or maybe even creepy! It would be insane to assume I didn't know that!
I plan to come back in a day or so to connect and speak of what comes to me, but I fear it won't make any sense(as it never seems to until later on), because I feel each statement doesn't connect to each other most times.
So until then, I will hope you will wait patiently for my next post!
Farewell readers!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, March 6, 2015
A symbolic dream
I had a dream the other night...
I was a man, walking down a deserted old country road. It was winter time and the road didn't have any homes, nor lights. I do remember that it was a full moon, because I noticed how the moon lit up the road, and that the ice glistened on parts of the road, that had once melted in the sunlight on a warm winters day. The shadows cast from the moon; glowed blue, on parts of the snow, as the light from the moon hit it just right. It was beautiful really....
I walked, and walk, for what seemed for hours. Hours and hours, although it was just a dream it seemed so long, within my subconscious mind. I heard small sounds of crackling from the old trees gently moving in the cold. It's funny, the smallest of things can be noticed.
Suddenly I heard a vehicle off in the distance, ahead of me up the road. I began to see headlights. I couldn't make out quite what it was. "What is that?" I asked under my breath but, loud enough I could hear myself.
As it approached; I squinted a little, to see what it was. Just than I remembered I was wearing all black and had a shiny light reflector attached to an old key chain. I quickly pulled it out and pointed it towards the light source and waved it around a few times. I was hoping they would notice and not drive too fast and run me over. I was started to make out the frame of a car, it slowed down.
As the car came closer and slower I was starting to notice something familiar and that I knew the driver. I looked in the drivers side window and was about to talk and they were about to say something too....
But than I awoke! So I wake up, confused, stunned, and wondering what could have woke me up so suddenly. No alarm was on at the time. I wasn't too hot, nor too cold. I just woke up.
My take on this dream?
Maybe I feel like I am wandering aimlessly, maybe I'm feeling a little lost in life and not sure where to start or go right now. Maybe the person I felt familiar with as a driver, is someone I feel I need to ask for help?
When I try to understand a dream, weather it is mine or someone else's I also try to get every detail that stands out most. Everything that is noticed, if there is a question asked in the dream or even about the dream I try my best to dig as deep as I can into the dream to try to bring it out in the open for the conscious mind to understand and relate to.
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Saturday, February 14, 2015
Strange State - Paranormal Mysteries: Psychic Dream Saved Six
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Strange State - Paranormal Mysteries: Psychic Dream Saved Six: In November 1852, Captain George Yount (Yountsville, CA is named for him) accompanied Henry Horn on a hunting trip in the mountains. One ...
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Strange State - Paranormal Mysteries: Psychic Dream Saved Six: In November 1852, Captain George Yount (Yountsville, CA is named for him) accompanied Henry Horn on a hunting trip in the mountains. One ...
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And it was...And it is...Are my eyes decieving me?
I'm not for sure of how I want to start this off.
Home schoolers I learnt that...a majority of them are Christians. Don't get me wrong here, in what I have to say, I'm not hating on God! Be that known right from the start!
Anyway now, the children folk I speak of now and am in favor to stand up for. Yes god is good and god is great! BUT why do that to the children? Why home school them and say it is gods way! Have you had a conversation and he had replied back? Did god tell you he said you must teach his children all those things that people(not god) write in books is to be truth? Put me down! I don't care, blasphemy-ze me! YOU ARE NOT GOD!
I'm heated, I am sorry!
I'm heated, I am sorry!
But seeing people; home school children, and say "god says" "God demands" this, that, and everything god! "There isn't enough god, blah blah and more blah god!"
I am sorry, truthfully I am, but it sounds like these children are being force fed things of the lord that no one even knows about and that they start off so young, they don't know or choose anything, they are brain washed, so instead of being able to think for themselves; they are fed, and given and told everything.
It isn't unlearning anything, if you are teaching them all the stuff from the very beginning of their lives, where did they learn anything to even be unlearned in the first place? Understand my point here or have an argument?
Please Don't take advantage of their little trusting souls! You want them to be loyal Christians? Send them to church and Sunday school! That is what that is for! That is where they can learn of proper Christian things. I worry about how they will feel in the real world after parents only teach of such things. Do they want God fearing hermits/Hermtes's(whatever the female term is)?
I am sorry, truthfully I am, but it sounds like these children are being force fed things of the lord that no one even knows about and that they start off so young, they don't know or choose anything, they are brain washed, so instead of being able to think for themselves; they are fed, and given and told everything.
It isn't unlearning anything, if you are teaching them all the stuff from the very beginning of their lives, where did they learn anything to even be unlearned in the first place? Understand my point here or have an argument?
Please Don't take advantage of their little trusting souls! You want them to be loyal Christians? Send them to church and Sunday school! That is what that is for! That is where they can learn of proper Christian things. I worry about how they will feel in the real world after parents only teach of such things. Do they want God fearing hermits/Hermtes's(whatever the female term is)?
Think, before thy speak. Learn, before thy act. How will they learn of other people's reaction? Does all these things that keep them naive to the world, teach them anything of the people's of the world? Tragic! I hope I explain my thoughts well enough!
May peace, love, blessings and GODS LOVE...OPEN YOUR EYES!!
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I love you all and thank you for reading
Phoebe
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Phoebe
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Tuesday, April 29, 2014
About my symbols
After all these years, I finally get a symbol I recognize. It was a REIKI Symbol, it is the Cho Ku Rei.
Though I did not remember what it was called nor it's symbolism or meaning when drawn or spoken. So I did a google search and search "healing symbols".....
Low and behold most of the symbols or even parts of them, only some upside down, reversed as well as backwards. So I guess all this time, I have finally opened up a piece of my confusion. A clue and or puzzle has been revealed. I'm confused as to why I'd get them. I'm confused why it took me so long to figure what they actually were for/from. Can you imagine my confusion? I not saying all of my symbols, but ...at least half or even maybe most of them.
At least now, I have something to work with for my own personal development with these symbols, but I feel maybe I'm just back to square one now and have to start over, and learn these symbols. I've never been attuned by any physical REIKI Master(that I am aware of at least)! So now maybe that alone, could show more of why I am having some confusion?
I guess now I could ask if their are any out there reading this, that might be attuned and knows more on the symbols, could you check my "symbols" blog pages, and maybe point out some? You can only do so much with google and what I know already, probably isn't enough; though, I'll try my best. I know one of the biggest so far over the years, which stands out most is FOCUS! So for now I'll do my research some more, and focus.
What's your views and or beliefs?
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Though I did not remember what it was called nor it's symbolism or meaning when drawn or spoken. So I did a google search and search "healing symbols".....
Low and behold most of the symbols or even parts of them, only some upside down, reversed as well as backwards. So I guess all this time, I have finally opened up a piece of my confusion. A clue and or puzzle has been revealed. I'm confused as to why I'd get them. I'm confused why it took me so long to figure what they actually were for/from. Can you imagine my confusion? I not saying all of my symbols, but ...at least half or even maybe most of them.
At least now, I have something to work with for my own personal development with these symbols, but I feel maybe I'm just back to square one now and have to start over, and learn these symbols. I've never been attuned by any physical REIKI Master(that I am aware of at least)! So now maybe that alone, could show more of why I am having some confusion?
I guess now I could ask if their are any out there reading this, that might be attuned and knows more on the symbols, could you check my "symbols" blog pages, and maybe point out some? You can only do so much with google and what I know already, probably isn't enough; though, I'll try my best. I know one of the biggest so far over the years, which stands out most is FOCUS! So for now I'll do my research some more, and focus.
What's your views and or beliefs?
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Monday, April 21, 2014
Those thought impressions...I guess
Some findings, you know those voices, they can have some sort of affect on things. And as I say this, I don't know the origin! I searched a small bit with google, "say yee oh blasphemy-full ones" and came to find the link below. And the rest (of the quote after "say yee oh blasphemy-full ones,") followed after viewing the link myself.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+10&version=KJV
"say yee oh blasphemy-full ones, lay thine eyes on my words this day, and see your treacherous thoughts revealed to you." Unknown
These are not my words quoted above, they are from an "unknown source", no pun intended!!!
Happy resurrection day(Easter), I guess. And well I guess google doesn't celebrate it, I've noticed; as it is not, in the google cover as most holidays are. No judgment, just something I noticed.
That is all.
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http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+10&version=KJV
"say yee oh blasphemy-full ones, lay thine eyes on my words this day, and see your treacherous thoughts revealed to you." Unknown
These are not my words quoted above, they are from an "unknown source", no pun intended!!!
Happy resurrection day(Easter), I guess. And well I guess google doesn't celebrate it, I've noticed; as it is not, in the google cover as most holidays are. No judgment, just something I noticed.
That is all.
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Sunday, September 15, 2013
Something to keep you busy...
Mystery of the Sphinx - FREE Movie
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Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Coming back
So I am deciding to come back, I wont be posting images or symbol information for a while as I have been moving around and literally been everywhere lately.
I know it has been quite some time since my last blog posting, but I do have good reasons why!
For a while, I may just post something completely random, about my day, or about some story of what has happened thus far! But mainly my focus here will be short stories or a few poems scattered here now and again.
I'm sorry for my absence, and hope everyone has been enjoying life until this point.
I will be back in the near future, as to my new posts that will be added.
Be well
Unknown
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I know it has been quite some time since my last blog posting, but I do have good reasons why!
For a while, I may just post something completely random, about my day, or about some story of what has happened thus far! But mainly my focus here will be short stories or a few poems scattered here now and again.
I'm sorry for my absence, and hope everyone has been enjoying life until this point.
I will be back in the near future, as to my new posts that will be added.
Be well
Unknown
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Without using a computer for quite some time...
So here I am.
You're all probably wondering where I have been.
The thing is time passes in life and life does often get busy. And passes it does, as time...It waits for no one!
My time frame is off, by quite a bit if you might notice from past postings of blogs and such...as it is.
Issues arise, conflicts arrive as well. And I just haven't found too much time to get on a computer to post. I have also been contemplating getting back to my symbols studies (no not posting them, actually studying them) I feel that calling again, in a most urgency of ways as of late.
I am not sure if I shared the fact that I am a published author(besides blogging I might add), and I have had some crop ups of messages that people don't know this of myself and felt I may as well state so. For the record, and so people can get that out of their heads that I haven't. Not that, that is very important to me! Not greatly so anyway.
So on to my calling of studies that I myself and probably others reading this, know why it's even needed. Perhaps my symbols on paper (which I have not shared!) would maybe shed some light on the why's.
I needed to stop in and post something as I have noticed, January was my last post and it is now the month of April.
I hope you are all well and that maybe Parts of the world would stop getting so mad(I wish) and arguing about who has the biggest bombs!
Why can't things just be civil? Why can't things be resolved? Why are things always getting out of hand and leading out of context?
Why do things that can be settled so easily with communication end up leading to such distraction? I'm saddened by it all!!!
Wishing everyone happiness and peace, Blessings to all and I hope things get cleared up (though I have a bad feeling they wont before it's too late), so that people can see things for what they are and be clear headed for a change.
The mind is a noisy place as it is.
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You're all probably wondering where I have been.
The thing is time passes in life and life does often get busy. And passes it does, as time...It waits for no one!
My time frame is off, by quite a bit if you might notice from past postings of blogs and such...as it is.
Issues arise, conflicts arrive as well. And I just haven't found too much time to get on a computer to post. I have also been contemplating getting back to my symbols studies (no not posting them, actually studying them) I feel that calling again, in a most urgency of ways as of late.
I am not sure if I shared the fact that I am a published author(besides blogging I might add), and I have had some crop ups of messages that people don't know this of myself and felt I may as well state so. For the record, and so people can get that out of their heads that I haven't. Not that, that is very important to me! Not greatly so anyway.
So on to my calling of studies that I myself and probably others reading this, know why it's even needed. Perhaps my symbols on paper (which I have not shared!) would maybe shed some light on the why's.
I needed to stop in and post something as I have noticed, January was my last post and it is now the month of April.
I hope you are all well and that maybe Parts of the world would stop getting so mad(I wish) and arguing about who has the biggest bombs!
Why can't things just be civil? Why can't things be resolved? Why are things always getting out of hand and leading out of context?
Why do things that can be settled so easily with communication end up leading to such distraction? I'm saddened by it all!!!
Wishing everyone happiness and peace, Blessings to all and I hope things get cleared up (though I have a bad feeling they wont before it's too late), so that people can see things for what they are and be clear headed for a change.
The mind is a noisy place as it is.
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Saturday, January 12, 2013
I say you
And I'll tell you this ONE LAST TIME!
"Many will use You, in order to get to Me!"
They will mock love, they will also hide truths within, that you cannot find.
They will act hurt when you choose to leave, when they just fear you will come to me.
Those who do not know of such feelings, do not fully show it, but yet pretend if necessary what they "believe" it should look like, OR do as they have seen "true feelings" shown to them from others. Easy masks they wear, when they observe others who are real. Learn this by watching their over all reactions, rather then just listening, one can listen and believe ones words, but if you do not observe their over all persona, you will not see what is truly there!
OBSERVE, but don't get caught. Because remember, a con observes everything, but so does a long time abused heart broken soul...For they have been fooled by cons most of their life, so they can now read them well. (Makes sense now, more? Hope so, because learning the hard way hurts immensely)
"Many will use You(play on your emotions and fears), to get to me(to hurt me in anyway)!
You don't believe me now, but in time, you shall see! Only in time that gets wasted with regrets, shall others see the truth within the lies!
"KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN!" - Unknown
Whether the loving messages are directed at me or not, I'll still send my love out.
"Get off your knees"
One last message, which I know is not to me...But from me.
"They think we are the same person, WE ARE NOT!"
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"Many will use You, in order to get to Me!"
They will mock love, they will also hide truths within, that you cannot find.
They will act hurt when you choose to leave, when they just fear you will come to me.
Those who do not know of such feelings, do not fully show it, but yet pretend if necessary what they "believe" it should look like, OR do as they have seen "true feelings" shown to them from others. Easy masks they wear, when they observe others who are real. Learn this by watching their over all reactions, rather then just listening, one can listen and believe ones words, but if you do not observe their over all persona, you will not see what is truly there!
OBSERVE, but don't get caught. Because remember, a con observes everything, but so does a long time abused heart broken soul...For they have been fooled by cons most of their life, so they can now read them well. (Makes sense now, more? Hope so, because learning the hard way hurts immensely)
"Many will use You(play on your emotions and fears), to get to me(to hurt me in anyway)!
You don't believe me now, but in time, you shall see! Only in time that gets wasted with regrets, shall others see the truth within the lies!
"KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN!" - Unknown
Whether the loving messages are directed at me or not, I'll still send my love out.
"Get off your knees"
One last message, which I know is not to me...But from me.
"They think we are the same person, WE ARE NOT!"
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Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Messages
Sorry for my absence, for I took some time to myself, or I must say, somewhat to myself.
I was getting messages, lots of messages, but before my absence, I thought it was lovingly sent towards myself. I found out the hard way I have been wrong on that.
I'm recieving loving messages always, but none are for me...Somehow I am having them directed my way, but sadly, those lovely and wonderful messages, are not for me.
This realization has left me sad, and very hurt inside. So instead of posting blogs I wanted to stay away, just the thought, that they are not for me has me built up inside with tears. life has had me in so many moments happy, sad, worried, and wishing that they had of been for me. I had myself foolishly believing I was loved.
I end this note saying, I'm grateful for each day I am surviving. Even though I hide this dreadful pain inside. Knowing that I am anonymous here, makes it a bit easier to express. But still all feelings are still harder to express these days, when I always have felt alone in this world, even when tons of people are around. There is a sadness, that I couldn't ever explain, even if I so chose to, express.
I am wishing, praying and hoping that no one ever has to feel this way, as I always have, and it's more-so-worse, now that I have this knowledge that the messages, might be coming to me, they are not...not for me.
Happiness and blessings go out to you all who shall find yourselves reading this for the holiday seasons.
And for my own emotional health, I am wanting to cry, because the huge lump in my throat from not doing so, is becoming hurtful and bothersome.
Farewell until another post.
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I was getting messages, lots of messages, but before my absence, I thought it was lovingly sent towards myself. I found out the hard way I have been wrong on that.
I'm recieving loving messages always, but none are for me...Somehow I am having them directed my way, but sadly, those lovely and wonderful messages, are not for me.
This realization has left me sad, and very hurt inside. So instead of posting blogs I wanted to stay away, just the thought, that they are not for me has me built up inside with tears. life has had me in so many moments happy, sad, worried, and wishing that they had of been for me. I had myself foolishly believing I was loved.
I end this note saying, I'm grateful for each day I am surviving. Even though I hide this dreadful pain inside. Knowing that I am anonymous here, makes it a bit easier to express. But still all feelings are still harder to express these days, when I always have felt alone in this world, even when tons of people are around. There is a sadness, that I couldn't ever explain, even if I so chose to, express.
I am wishing, praying and hoping that no one ever has to feel this way, as I always have, and it's more-so-worse, now that I have this knowledge that the messages, might be coming to me, they are not...not for me.
Happiness and blessings go out to you all who shall find yourselves reading this for the holiday seasons.
And for my own emotional health, I am wanting to cry, because the huge lump in my throat from not doing so, is becoming hurtful and bothersome.
Farewell until another post.
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Monday, September 3, 2012
Odd dreams, the voices of strangers (I think) and other odd things!
I've been having these strange dreams again! These types of dreams have always plagued my mind with confusion. The reason I say this is because, they leaving me wondering. Like why would I dream of helping people and saving peoples lives? Why do I dream of finding out people I know, but not personally know, are sick? I'm stuck always with questions like this.
Then there are the voices, they say the oddest things, it's always as if I am hearing one persons part of a conversation, yet I'm not there, nor the other person they are talking to! And I hate that it's always when I am trying to lay in bed and trying hard to fall a sleep! Can you imagine how hard it is to sleep when you hear a woman's voice say "I can't believe I did that!" and she had so much emotion within her words, AM I EMPATHIC? I ask because I feel their anguish and their pain within their words, it makes me sit up and say aloud "WTF?" well not wtf but you know what abbreviates!
And then there was that other time with an older lady or at least I think...it wasn't really heard it was rather seen. And they said "I want to kill your daughter" and another time it said "I will kill your daughter" ...Sooooo You can imagine I didn't sleep at all for a few nights after those different instances!
So over all this time I have been having some odd words tossed in my brain and some odd dreams played out within my brain...am I dying? Why are all these odd things happening to me? Please tell me I'm not the only one! People wonder why I'm single and don't want anyone right now, can you imagine sharing this with someone you are dating? I can't. :(
I've been a bit down, so I got out a few times and met with friends and we watch some music shows and we went home and our separate ways and I've been out a few times by myself, but really, it has been crazy.
That's it for now I guess, I wanted to post sooner but it's been a bit crazy...as you can tell. It's also been hard to get online.
Unknown
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Then there are the voices, they say the oddest things, it's always as if I am hearing one persons part of a conversation, yet I'm not there, nor the other person they are talking to! And I hate that it's always when I am trying to lay in bed and trying hard to fall a sleep! Can you imagine how hard it is to sleep when you hear a woman's voice say "I can't believe I did that!" and she had so much emotion within her words, AM I EMPATHIC? I ask because I feel their anguish and their pain within their words, it makes me sit up and say aloud "WTF?" well not wtf but you know what abbreviates!
And then there was that other time with an older lady or at least I think...it wasn't really heard it was rather seen. And they said "I want to kill your daughter" and another time it said "I will kill your daughter" ...Sooooo You can imagine I didn't sleep at all for a few nights after those different instances!
So over all this time I have been having some odd words tossed in my brain and some odd dreams played out within my brain...am I dying? Why are all these odd things happening to me? Please tell me I'm not the only one! People wonder why I'm single and don't want anyone right now, can you imagine sharing this with someone you are dating? I can't. :(
I've been a bit down, so I got out a few times and met with friends and we watch some music shows and we went home and our separate ways and I've been out a few times by myself, but really, it has been crazy.
That's it for now I guess, I wanted to post sooner but it's been a bit crazy...as you can tell. It's also been hard to get online.
Unknown
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Sunday, August 5, 2012
Life and emotional attachments! And a shared dream from long ago.
Life and emotional attachments!
Days are going by, I'm living, but still have this vague stagnant feeling within me that craves to go do something.
That being said, I'm somewhat, what they consider a closet case. I don't consider myself to be such, but I stay somewhat feeling trapped on decisions on what to do next. Now I don't want to sound crazy, but I always seem to do so. So here is what I "propose"....
I'm waiting things out until I figure things out in order to "do what I set out to do"!?!
So I like to stay home, not because I am lazy, but because I have these voices shouting from everywhere that I shouldn't venture elsewhere because of some impending doom that lurks on the outside. I do the greatest of my ability to ignore this, but as of late...That seems to be getting closer to me than I'd like to admit. Perhaps it's some kind of criminal mind in hiding and waiting for me? Or maybe it's awaiting someone else, and the wires are being crossed somehow and I am receiving something not even directed towards myself?
Now I don't know if this thing is an inward loop of fear, or if someone is messing with my mind signals, maybe an inner voice or "something(or someone) that is intervening" with my processes in life in general. To be brutally honest, I feel it is the latter! I must also note though, there is also another voice saying "their intentions are to love me"...See I keep getting mixed messages and mixed signals that can be a bit confusing to the brain in this all to mixed up thought process.
Honestly though, there is so much chaos out there in this whole entire world that saddens me. I often wonder if I am the only one, experiencing these add feelings and receiving such odd impressions. Something within me says "I'm not the only one", but another part of me doubts that and asks "Why me?"
I had a dream once (Okay, maybe more than once), where everyone had to leave on a big cargo plane, because where we were, was going to be attacked or in some kind of danger or plagued or something like that. Everyone, including my children and other loved ones/friends. They were all boarding this plane, BUT I said NO, I said I wasn't getting on the plane! This cargo plane was like the ones you see animals transported to their countries, after being in captivity. BUT...It was one of those huge ones, that they have enough room for elephants and big animals like that. This was very odd though, people were boarding from land while this plane was in the water. Which strikes me as odd, because everyone walked from ground and than walking through water and boarding the plane that way. It was a very odd looking plane for a cargo plane. People entered the back, like animals...through this large drop down back door. If you can picture that.
Anyways I always think about that dream, I had it so many years ago, but I always ended up getting myself left behind while everyone I loved and everyone else, left to go to safety. I always ask myself why I wouldn't go, it's as if I wasn't ready to move on or to leave my home and place I love. I'm still unsure to why I had this dream and usually I am pretty good at figuring them out, after thinking them over.
I don't have aids. It's a more complicated illness and I care not to explain! Maybe I have this strong emotional attachment to life that keeps me going.....Anyways...
Loving you all and thinking of you and the world deeply lately.
Unknown Sender
Days are going by, I'm living, but still have this vague stagnant feeling within me that craves to go do something.
That being said, I'm somewhat, what they consider a closet case. I don't consider myself to be such, but I stay somewhat feeling trapped on decisions on what to do next. Now I don't want to sound crazy, but I always seem to do so. So here is what I "propose"....
I'm waiting things out until I figure things out in order to "do what I set out to do"!?!
So I like to stay home, not because I am lazy, but because I have these voices shouting from everywhere that I shouldn't venture elsewhere because of some impending doom that lurks on the outside. I do the greatest of my ability to ignore this, but as of late...That seems to be getting closer to me than I'd like to admit. Perhaps it's some kind of criminal mind in hiding and waiting for me? Or maybe it's awaiting someone else, and the wires are being crossed somehow and I am receiving something not even directed towards myself?
Now I don't know if this thing is an inward loop of fear, or if someone is messing with my mind signals, maybe an inner voice or "something(or someone) that is intervening" with my processes in life in general. To be brutally honest, I feel it is the latter! I must also note though, there is also another voice saying "their intentions are to love me"...See I keep getting mixed messages and mixed signals that can be a bit confusing to the brain in this all to mixed up thought process.
Honestly though, there is so much chaos out there in this whole entire world that saddens me. I often wonder if I am the only one, experiencing these add feelings and receiving such odd impressions. Something within me says "I'm not the only one", but another part of me doubts that and asks "Why me?"
I had a dream once (Okay, maybe more than once), where everyone had to leave on a big cargo plane, because where we were, was going to be attacked or in some kind of danger or plagued or something like that. Everyone, including my children and other loved ones/friends. They were all boarding this plane, BUT I said NO, I said I wasn't getting on the plane! This cargo plane was like the ones you see animals transported to their countries, after being in captivity. BUT...It was one of those huge ones, that they have enough room for elephants and big animals like that. This was very odd though, people were boarding from land while this plane was in the water. Which strikes me as odd, because everyone walked from ground and than walking through water and boarding the plane that way. It was a very odd looking plane for a cargo plane. People entered the back, like animals...through this large drop down back door. If you can picture that.
Anyways I always think about that dream, I had it so many years ago, but I always ended up getting myself left behind while everyone I loved and everyone else, left to go to safety. I always ask myself why I wouldn't go, it's as if I wasn't ready to move on or to leave my home and place I love. I'm still unsure to why I had this dream and usually I am pretty good at figuring them out, after thinking them over.
I don't have aids. It's a more complicated illness and I care not to explain! Maybe I have this strong emotional attachment to life that keeps me going.....Anyways...
Loving you all and thinking of you and the world deeply lately.
Unknown Sender
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Tuesday, July 24, 2012
A little about freedom...
I've learned thus far, that freedom (if properly thought out) is not real!
Why do I say this?
To put it into words that you all can understand.
We can do what we want, but there is always some kind of price to pay! Whether it is with money, consequences or both.
If you commit a crime, you do the time!
If you make a choice and fail, there is a consequence.
For every action we make there is always a reaction.
When we are born, we are automatically bound without freedom! As an infant, we can not do everything for ourselves. That's probably the best part about life! For infants have no choices to make except to cry when we need love, attention or our butts changed.
As we grow older we are either shown and or taught our rights and wrongs. Our only freedom there is to choose what actions we make. We either mark on the walls( and get in trouble) or we don't and we live without the punishment of making that choice.
As teens we must decide if we steal or not, whether we try that drug and keep doing it or not, take a puff off a cigarette and keep smoking or not, go to a party and decide if we want to try different things or not. But with all these choices that we must make, they all have a reaction.
As adults we must make choices that affect our lives more so than when we were children, there are the choices of getting a job, going back to school, having children we must think wisely on what we teach them as they grow.
So as you can see, there is a freedom of choice, but no freedom at all for every choice made has it's repercussions! We can only hope that the choices we make are the right ones, no choice has a guarantee that it's right or wrong, we must wait and see what the outcome will be.
Whether you know what will come in the future or not, you are not guaranteed what choice you made to get to that outcome!
I hope I have put this into words to which you might understand my meaning when I say Freedom does not exist! Life is but a two sided coin, and no matter what side that coin is on, there is always a right and a wrong! Where is the freedom?
I'll let you be the judge of that.
Unknown
Why do I say this?
To put it into words that you all can understand.
We can do what we want, but there is always some kind of price to pay! Whether it is with money, consequences or both.
If you commit a crime, you do the time!
If you make a choice and fail, there is a consequence.
For every action we make there is always a reaction.
When we are born, we are automatically bound without freedom! As an infant, we can not do everything for ourselves. That's probably the best part about life! For infants have no choices to make except to cry when we need love, attention or our butts changed.
As we grow older we are either shown and or taught our rights and wrongs. Our only freedom there is to choose what actions we make. We either mark on the walls( and get in trouble) or we don't and we live without the punishment of making that choice.
As teens we must decide if we steal or not, whether we try that drug and keep doing it or not, take a puff off a cigarette and keep smoking or not, go to a party and decide if we want to try different things or not. But with all these choices that we must make, they all have a reaction.
As adults we must make choices that affect our lives more so than when we were children, there are the choices of getting a job, going back to school, having children we must think wisely on what we teach them as they grow.
So as you can see, there is a freedom of choice, but no freedom at all for every choice made has it's repercussions! We can only hope that the choices we make are the right ones, no choice has a guarantee that it's right or wrong, we must wait and see what the outcome will be.
Whether you know what will come in the future or not, you are not guaranteed what choice you made to get to that outcome!
I hope I have put this into words to which you might understand my meaning when I say Freedom does not exist! Life is but a two sided coin, and no matter what side that coin is on, there is always a right and a wrong! Where is the freedom?
I'll let you be the judge of that.
Unknown
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
I know you're watching!!
Here's a few things I've also learned a long the way in my life span through out my life with personal experience of course!
"What I've learned long ago, about the dark.
It's like being blind!
You don't, look.
You listen!"
"Generally, if you stop for a moment.
Pay attention to your surroundings,
And be sure, that there is nothing out of place,
If something is out of place,
You're either being watched,
Or, you just better walk fast out of there,
Without thinking about if you are or not!"
"Somethings, just aren't as they seem!"
"You better fear god, because hell, is over rated in this world!"
"Once someone breaks trust, it's almost impossible to gain it back again!"
"Even your own blood, will turn their backs on you."
"I'm not the only one being watched!!!"
Be well
I'm on a clock that ticks constantly now, and I wait for when it stops!
Unknown
"What I've learned long ago, about the dark.
It's like being blind!
You don't, look.
You listen!"
"Generally, if you stop for a moment.
Pay attention to your surroundings,
And be sure, that there is nothing out of place,
If something is out of place,
You're either being watched,
Or, you just better walk fast out of there,
Without thinking about if you are or not!"
"Somethings, just aren't as they seem!"
"You better fear god, because hell, is over rated in this world!"
"Once someone breaks trust, it's almost impossible to gain it back again!"
"Even your own blood, will turn their backs on you."
"I'm not the only one being watched!!!"
Be well
I'm on a clock that ticks constantly now, and I wait for when it stops!
Unknown
Thursday, July 5, 2012
A great find, not so new, but newly found for me.
I just found this video and I'd like to share such an interesting find! I hope you all find it as interesting as myself.
No updates right now, but I dislike leaving my blog idling and being stagnant. I'm still not feeling well at all. But the summer is making me feel a weee bit more content, and content as well as grateful to still be alive at this time.
Brightest of blessings to you all.
No updates right now, but I dislike leaving my blog idling and being stagnant. I'm still not feeling well at all. But the summer is making me feel a weee bit more content, and content as well as grateful to still be alive at this time.
Brightest of blessings to you all.
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